General Musings

Quite a few of our friends around us are expecting. A number have babies and a number are trying/planning etc. As for us, we muddle along with the 3 Little Songs. Today I realised that we had 3 kids in the span of about 3 years and 9 months. Still, we often get asked the question "So when's number 4 coming?" (Yes, the questions never end)

Thinking about parenthood, looking at my kids usually brings about a whole gamut of emotions. There is pride, there is joy, there is disbelief (are they really mine? Did I pop them all out). A feeling that I feel more often than not is wistfulness, especially when I look at pregnant bellies and little squishy newborns.. I know my little Songs are growing up well and happy, but part of me feels sad that it is more than likely that we won't have another little squish in our family.

While I am thoroughly happy with our little family, and I know physically, financially, pragmatically we are probably at the peak, I think there will always be a wistful thought having another bub in the house would be nice.. Ok until the hyperemesis sets in and I have to deal with sleepless nights all over again... 

2016

I always feel I struggle to put my thoughts down into writing. It's like they flow to eloquently in my head, but when I come to putting them down in writing, my laziness gets in the way. Don't even get me started on getting them into spoken form. Sometimes I feel my brain and mouth don't quite connect, but I am trying to work on that.

So it's the new year! I will be making resolutions, that usually start with getting 'super secret credit card''s debt down to zero. Hurhur. But at the same time I think I would really like to work on my life. I would like to learn to be more positive, more appreciative, more satisfied. To understand that people are made up of good and not-so-good traits but to learn to see the good. And not to worry so much. Oh yes, I think my worrying has come up to ridiculous levels, even though I try to contain it within myself most of the time.

Till then, this will also be a year of exams. I have an exam prep course tomorrow from 9-5. So I think it is also time to hit the sack.