Let's see how well I keep up at this. I haven't been very successful at all in the past. But the older I get, the more I feel like I need to put my thoughts down somewhere. I was taught to journal (by force) from the age of 6. I did that till I was 12 and then did it sporadically... occasionally... infrequently......... I am also a great procrastinator.. and a big lazy bum!
But hey.. in slightly over 4 months I'll be a mummy of 2! *shudder* and I think that warrants things being written and stored if anything else! (:
I think one thing that has struck me most in both my pregnancies is how little control one has over them. Yes, I am a major control freak and this makes it even more trying! You have no control over whether or not you fall pregnant. You have no control of how the pregnancy will turn out. You have no control over your symptoms. You have no control over your baby's gender (more on this later!) You have no control over when baby arrives! You have no control over your labour or your birth! ... phew... then you get to choose a name! Finally says the control freak.... then the list continues... I won't even go into how poor a sleeper Nat was!
I think for control freaks like myself, pregnancy is a time when God really teaches one to trust Him. Faith is believing in what you cannot see. God says do not be anxious is anything but to bring everything to Him in prayer. Much easier said than done of course. But life is a lesson. And to me this is one lesson that God has taught and continues to teach me.
So today, I just want to thank God. To thank Him for Nat as we continue to watch him grow and enjoy every moment with him. To thank Him for Baby Song as we have reached the halfway mark and more with him and all is going well. To be blessed with 2 healthy little ones. And to thank Him for bringing us through.
